It seems so impossible that you can be so down one day… and so up the next. I think everyone hopes for that magical day where they are just content all the time. Isn’t that what your over-achieving parents told you? Mine certainly did. You have achieved all you wanted to achieve, worked hard all your life, and poof, you are ultimately content with the life you have created.
So, it still surprises me that I am surprised when I can have a really good day following a bad.
But, things change…we may not want them to, but things change. And frankly, life does not work this way. Whoever told you this was creating an unrealistic dream and whoever believed this was a sucker. Hello, pleased to meet you…my name is Sucker.
But if life were always simple and working hard ultimately meant that everything worked out…where would stories for books, screenplays for movies, and lyrics for songs come from? Somebody needed to have a good day, a bad one, a good love, a bad one, or ultimately an amazing or awful experience in order to gain that inspiration.
So, as I get older I try harder and harder to understand that I am me. With me comes some good and some bad. And me is probably just like everybody else…just a little bit more worrisome about what those bad days mean and maybe a bit more hopeful about the good ones. But, everybody, and I mean EVERYBODY…Britney Spears, Prince Charles, Michael Phelps, even good old Robert Pattison have good days and bad. When you are a famous, good-looking multi-millionaire at 26 – who knew you didn’t shit gold all the time? If you have a rough sleep, get in a car accident, or have to mourn the passing of a pet…even the happiest of happy people can have a day where they just want to stay in bed forever.
As I sit in a beautiful backyard watching a waterfall, staring at lilies, listening to music, and watching two little puppies play, the desire to sleep forever and call it quits on hoping for everything I ever wanted seem so far away.
So, like Izzy in Grey’s Anatomy…you usually don’t understand the difference a day can make until you living it.
You never know the biggest day of your life is the biggest day. Not until it’s happening. You don’t recognize the biggest day of your life, not until you’re right in the middle of it. The day you commit to something or someone. The day you get your heart broken. The day you meet your soul mate day. The day you realize there’s not enough time, because you wanna live forever. Those are the biggest days. The perfect days.
So, don’t be like me…aspire instead to be like a good friend of mine. She doesn’t overthink the bad days…just has em. Maybe her mom was a realist, who knows…but realize that just because you are cranky and depressed and the sky looks like an old black and white photo today…doesn’t mean this day will be your every day.
The Ginga Ninja